I thought long and hard about whether I wanted to write this, but in the end, I decided I wanted to be honest with you. Let me tell you about my Dad.
Just over a week ago, I received the devastating news that my Dad had suddenly passed away. No warning, nothing. At 1am on Saturday morning, I was speeding down the M4 to Bristol, to get home to be with my family. It was the longest drive of my life, but Soph was beside me, her constant love and support spurring me on.
As I drove, and wept, one phrase kept rattling through my head, ‘Thanks Dad x’.
As many of you know, we’ve recently taken the plunge to embrace ‘The Good Life’, and have moved to rural Suffolk where we’re renovating a house and redesigning a garden.
Last week, my parents were due to come and stay with us for a few days, and I couldn’t have been more excited. I was eager to show my Dad our garden, the house, and share the plans we have. I wanted to make him proud.
A big supporter of Agents of Field and a lifetime gardener, he was always one of the first to read our latest blog. He would often text me photos from his garden, or want to hear about our latest gardening adventures. When I first told him that we were considering this life change, he couldn’t have been more excited and supportive of us.
‘Go for it, son.’ He said.
The week before my parents were due to come and stay, we had exchanged the usual telephone and text conversations. Never one to sit still, he had offered to help with laying the new floor in what will eventually be my office. But Soph and I both wanted him to relax while he was here, and I jokingly told him to ‘sod off’. Then on the Friday, a few hours before he passed away, after offering me some fatherly advice, I texted him, ‘Thanks Dad x’.
These were my last words to him.
He loved Christmas, and he loved gardening. He was the rock of the family; strong, wise, fun. Never faltering, he was always there without question.
At the moment, I’m lost. The pain is crippling. He wasn’t just my Dad, he was my counsel, my best friend, and my hero.
I’m not generally one to splash my personal affairs over social media, and I’m certainly not looking for sympathy, but so many of you have been very kind and supportive of Agents of Field, and I simply wanted to be honest with you and to explain our recent absence. I also wanted to let you know that Agents of Field will now be taking a short break over the Christmas period, but we will be back in early 2019.
Although broken, we will laugh again, turning happy moments into many more precious memories. And during these times, I will always think of the true gentleman who helped make me the person I am today… ‘Thanks Dad x’.
So, for now, my beautiful, loving wife and I would like to wish you all a peaceful Christmas and a joyful New Year.